Well, I am out of town and I wanted to just write a quick message to let you all know I won't be on for a while. Good thing I checked though, because it looks like I have been tagged for this week's word. Let's go with "happy."
Ok, other than that, that is it for me for about a week. I am out of town doing Christmas things and then I am off to Disneyland. Have a safe holidays everyone and I will see you on Sunday....
Monday, December 24, 2007
Friday, December 21, 2007
Belated gift
I am such a bad blogger friend. Because of an oversight, I accidentally left Tara out of my gift giving. I got the gift and everything, but when it came to posting it, it got left in the folder. I feel bad because she is one of the few people who comment on a consist ant basis. So again, sorry Tara, here is your gift...
I got her this book as she has done some guided tours in haunted places. Since she seems to enjoy it, I figured she needed a book to take it to the next level.
So, instead of a Frightful Dilemma question, here is a pondering question in honor of my forgetfulness - have you ever done something bad to another blogger on accident that you felt bad about? Or heck, did you do something on purpose to another blogger that you felt bad about?
I got her this book as she has done some guided tours in haunted places. Since she seems to enjoy it, I figured she needed a book to take it to the next level.
So, instead of a Frightful Dilemma question, here is a pondering question in honor of my forgetfulness - have you ever done something bad to another blogger on accident that you felt bad about? Or heck, did you do something on purpose to another blogger that you felt bad about?
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Time For Presents
It is time for my second annual gift giving post where I give gifts to my fellow bloggers. Here ya go everyone....
First, for Sushi. Her stories of being a waitress crack me up. Sure, she probably won't be doing this much longer as she just graduated college, but until she starts her new career, here is a funny t-shirt I felt she would appreciate!
For Val, my fellow comic lover, an awesome statue of her favorite character - Rogue!
For Mrs. Big Hairy Woman - Well, she is from Canada and is proud of it, so why not a shirt for all to see!
For Night Panther, the awesome photographer - this novelty shirt cracked me up when I saw it so I figured it would be perfect for him.
For Rhys, my fellow blogger from across the pond - I got him a Wii shirt (bunch of shirts this year) as he has often declared his live for this great video game system.
I got Sebastian, a fellow blogger who has been M.I.A with a sickness a get well package. Hope to see you back blogging soon buddy.
I figured Sonja, who reads more than anyone I know, could use a comfortable pillow to use when she is reading in bed. Looks pretty comfy to me!
Jerry, the ultimate San Diego sports fan, gets a pack of Chargers shirts. Look how you can mix and match them!
Jose gets the most expensive gift on the list. This is the ultimate karaoke machine with video, speakers, etc. It truly is a unique and awesome machine and he can practice his love of singing whenever he wants.
Laura works in a library so I found the librarian action figure! It comes with all these props and even makes a sshhh sound when you press a button!
Michelle is quite the crafty person so this book of scrapbooking ideas seems right up her alley!
Sharon is a big fan of birds and her bird Mooky is adorable. Hopefully she likes this Macaw calendar.
I had a hard time deciding what to get Alien as there were a ton of cool things to choose from. I chose this alien autopsy game which works very much like the game, Operation.
Churlita got a pretty expensive gift too. As she is a big fan of Guitar Hero, I figured she would like Rock Band. It is a blast!
My cousins haven't blogged for a while as I know they have been bust with life/jobs/etc, but since they were children of the 80s(and late 70s), I figured they would love this box set of 80s songs. I am sure it is like totally rad!
If you have ever been to Dmarks site, this shirt I found needs ZERO explanation. I will leave it at that!
Evil E does a great themed post on Tuesdays where he posts pictures of graffiti he sees around town. This book of graffiti of the world should be interesting to him I would think!
And there you have it! Hope everyone enjoyed their gifts!
First, for Sushi. Her stories of being a waitress crack me up. Sure, she probably won't be doing this much longer as she just graduated college, but until she starts her new career, here is a funny t-shirt I felt she would appreciate!
For Val, my fellow comic lover, an awesome statue of her favorite character - Rogue!
For Mrs. Big Hairy Woman - Well, she is from Canada and is proud of it, so why not a shirt for all to see!
For Night Panther, the awesome photographer - this novelty shirt cracked me up when I saw it so I figured it would be perfect for him.
For Rhys, my fellow blogger from across the pond - I got him a Wii shirt (bunch of shirts this year) as he has often declared his live for this great video game system.
I got Sebastian, a fellow blogger who has been M.I.A with a sickness a get well package. Hope to see you back blogging soon buddy.
I figured Sonja, who reads more than anyone I know, could use a comfortable pillow to use when she is reading in bed. Looks pretty comfy to me!
Jerry, the ultimate San Diego sports fan, gets a pack of Chargers shirts. Look how you can mix and match them!
Jose gets the most expensive gift on the list. This is the ultimate karaoke machine with video, speakers, etc. It truly is a unique and awesome machine and he can practice his love of singing whenever he wants.
Laura works in a library so I found the librarian action figure! It comes with all these props and even makes a sshhh sound when you press a button!
Michelle is quite the crafty person so this book of scrapbooking ideas seems right up her alley!
Sharon is a big fan of birds and her bird Mooky is adorable. Hopefully she likes this Macaw calendar.
I had a hard time deciding what to get Alien as there were a ton of cool things to choose from. I chose this alien autopsy game which works very much like the game, Operation.
Churlita got a pretty expensive gift too. As she is a big fan of Guitar Hero, I figured she would like Rock Band. It is a blast!
My cousins haven't blogged for a while as I know they have been bust with life/jobs/etc, but since they were children of the 80s(and late 70s), I figured they would love this box set of 80s songs. I am sure it is like totally rad!
If you have ever been to Dmarks site, this shirt I found needs ZERO explanation. I will leave it at that!
Evil E does a great themed post on Tuesdays where he posts pictures of graffiti he sees around town. This book of graffiti of the world should be interesting to him I would think!
And there you have it! Hope everyone enjoyed their gifts!
Monday, December 17, 2007
When it counts...
As I have been talking about on my blog, I have been struggling at poker lately. In fact, I hadn't won a tournament in over 5 months! Losing time after time like that is not something I am used to. We play every 2 weeks at my house and have a fairly big game (10-16 players each game). Each game is its own seperate tournament, but we also put in some extra money for the player of the year tournament and earn points each game based on how we do. These points earn us chips for the player of the year tournament. Somehow, I have been able to win the player of the year the last 2 years. Going into this year's player of the year tournament though, I was not big on confidence based on the current losing streak.
Somehow, I was able to pull out the victory on Saturday. With 16 of us playing, I knew it would take nothing short of a miracle to win. I thought about changing the way I had been playing because what I was doing obviously hadn't worked for the last 5 months. It worked the previous 2 years, but the well had run dry. After thinking about it though, I remembered that my losing streak was due more to the extremely bad luck I had been getting and not the poor play. I decided to stick it out and play the same way.
A couple of people took huge chips leads in the tournament, but I played my game and never really wavered far from the amount of chips I started with. Suddenly, about 4 hours after we started, it was down to just me and my opponent. Even then, my back was up against the wall as he had around 13,000 chips to my 2,000. I didn't panic though, and about 15 minutes later, I was able to take the lead and eventually the win. I won almost $300 for 1st place, but it really wasn't about the money at all. What made me happy is that after struggling for so long, I was able to still rise to the occasion when the championship was on the line. I was able to earn player of the year for the third year in a row. I was able to prove to myself and everyone else that I can play. This third championship is extra sweet!
Somehow, I was able to pull out the victory on Saturday. With 16 of us playing, I knew it would take nothing short of a miracle to win. I thought about changing the way I had been playing because what I was doing obviously hadn't worked for the last 5 months. It worked the previous 2 years, but the well had run dry. After thinking about it though, I remembered that my losing streak was due more to the extremely bad luck I had been getting and not the poor play. I decided to stick it out and play the same way.
A couple of people took huge chips leads in the tournament, but I played my game and never really wavered far from the amount of chips I started with. Suddenly, about 4 hours after we started, it was down to just me and my opponent. Even then, my back was up against the wall as he had around 13,000 chips to my 2,000. I didn't panic though, and about 15 minutes later, I was able to take the lead and eventually the win. I won almost $300 for 1st place, but it really wasn't about the money at all. What made me happy is that after struggling for so long, I was able to still rise to the occasion when the championship was on the line. I was able to earn player of the year for the third year in a row. I was able to prove to myself and everyone else that I can play. This third championship is extra sweet!
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Evil E's Saturday Scavenger Hunt #10
I am making a habit of doing these on Sunday! This week's word comes courtesy of Alien who picked the word "card." Here is what I came up with...
This first one is a picture of Leia reading her birthday card on Friday. Such a smart girl...
Every year, we put the Christmas cards we get on the front door. Here is what we have received so far...
Here is a closeup of the card we got from Rhys. How cool is this...he made buttons for his blog and included them in his Christmas cards! That is bloody brilliant!
Here is the most impotant of the pictures. This was last night on my card table as I became the champion of my poker league for the third year in a row. Much more on this story next post...
I haven't looked to see what it is the word for this week, but I will let you know soon.
Basically one week 'til Christmas. I am going to be on vacation the whole week of Christmas so I will make sure to make good use of my blogging time this week> Here is the schedule...
Tuesday - Poker tournament story...
Wednesday - Like I did last year, I will virtually hand out gifts to all my fellow bloggers. Be sure to stop by to see what you are getting! Everyone, even those who haven't commented on here in a long while, will get a gift so don't miss it.
Friday - Frightful Delimma Friday and Misc. stuff
Saturday - Saturday Scavenger Hunt
Have a good week everyone...
This first one is a picture of Leia reading her birthday card on Friday. Such a smart girl...
Every year, we put the Christmas cards we get on the front door. Here is what we have received so far...
Here is a closeup of the card we got from Rhys. How cool is this...he made buttons for his blog and included them in his Christmas cards! That is bloody brilliant!
Here is the most impotant of the pictures. This was last night on my card table as I became the champion of my poker league for the third year in a row. Much more on this story next post...
I haven't looked to see what it is the word for this week, but I will let you know soon.
Basically one week 'til Christmas. I am going to be on vacation the whole week of Christmas so I will make sure to make good use of my blogging time this week> Here is the schedule...
Tuesday - Poker tournament story...
Wednesday - Like I did last year, I will virtually hand out gifts to all my fellow bloggers. Be sure to stop by to see what you are getting! Everyone, even those who haven't commented on here in a long while, will get a gift so don't miss it.
Friday - Frightful Delimma Friday and Misc. stuff
Saturday - Saturday Scavenger Hunt
Have a good week everyone...
Friday, December 14, 2007
Frightful Dilemma Friday #13
Happy Friday! As you can see, I made a few changes to my layout. Most of them are minor, but improvements nonetheless; but the main change is my custom banner I have above. This was made by one of the guys in my video game clan, Happyflapjacks. We were talking one day and he mentioned he used to do web design and one thing led to another and resulted in the banner above. I LOVE it. Jess and I had dinner with him the other night as he was in town for a business trip. Nice to meet someone you have only talked to on your blue tooth while blowing up the opposition! OTD for life!
I'm glad everyone liked the pics I took. Since it was Wordless Wednesday, I couldn't tell you that I took those in downtown Sacramento the other day. There are a lot of old houses there and since I had my camera to take pictures of Jessica's mismatched shoes, I decided to take advantage of the shot opportunities since I was downtown already.
Finally, it is time for Frightful Dilemma Friday again!
Would you rather....
have a digitally blurred face like criminals on tv...
or...
have a range of motion reduced to how a GI Joe action figure can move?
Tomorrow's word is card. Come back to see the pics!
I'm glad everyone liked the pics I took. Since it was Wordless Wednesday, I couldn't tell you that I took those in downtown Sacramento the other day. There are a lot of old houses there and since I had my camera to take pictures of Jessica's mismatched shoes, I decided to take advantage of the shot opportunities since I was downtown already.
Finally, it is time for Frightful Dilemma Friday again!
Would you rather....
have a digitally blurred face like criminals on tv...
or...
have a range of motion reduced to how a GI Joe action figure can move?
Tomorrow's word is card. Come back to see the pics!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Monday, December 10, 2007
Where does the line start?
The poster for the movie event of 2008 was just released. This, along with movie stills released the last couple of weeks, has me "giddy as a school boy!" This movie can not come fast enough!
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Evil E's Saturday Scavenger Hunt #9
This week's word was "light." Being the Christmas season, I knew I could find something to shoot. I had a lot of fun with this one...
First, a picture of our Christmas tree. The light didn't come out quite as sharp or clear as I wanted them and I missed with a few things. Maybe someone with photographic knowledge could let me know. Aperature setting? Shutter Speed setting?
Here is a picture I messed up on when shooting the tree, but I thought it looked cool enough to post...
Here is a Santa statue thingy with lights we have. I thought the stars behind it looked cool on the wall.
This is a light in the parking structure I was in the other day. If you look closely, you can see a spider in the lower right hand corner of the light.
This is what happens when you put on your shoes in the morning WITHOUT light. Jess wore two different colored shoes to work on Friday and I had to save her by bringing the correct shoe.
This is the worst kind of light - a red light!
After I took the red light, I saw that the clouds behind it looked cool so I decided to take a picture of the sunlight and clouds. I think it came out pretty well.
My fellow blogger Night Panther, a GREAT photographer, participated this week so be sure to go look at his great light pictures he took!
I haven't looked at what next week's word is, but I can't wait to see.....
First, a picture of our Christmas tree. The light didn't come out quite as sharp or clear as I wanted them and I missed with a few things. Maybe someone with photographic knowledge could let me know. Aperature setting? Shutter Speed setting?
Here is a picture I messed up on when shooting the tree, but I thought it looked cool enough to post...
Here is a Santa statue thingy with lights we have. I thought the stars behind it looked cool on the wall.
This is a light in the parking structure I was in the other day. If you look closely, you can see a spider in the lower right hand corner of the light.
This is what happens when you put on your shoes in the morning WITHOUT light. Jess wore two different colored shoes to work on Friday and I had to save her by bringing the correct shoe.
This is the worst kind of light - a red light!
After I took the red light, I saw that the clouds behind it looked cool so I decided to take a picture of the sunlight and clouds. I think it came out pretty well.
My fellow blogger Night Panther, a GREAT photographer, participated this week so be sure to go look at his great light pictures he took!
I haven't looked at what next week's word is, but I can't wait to see.....
Thursday, December 06, 2007
Trivia Thursday #14
What is this? Trivia Thursday 2 weeks in a row?!?!?
Enjoy...
1. What bird was first domesticated by man?
2. The average hen lays how many eggs a year?
3. A pig orgasm last for how long?
4. What desert has an area larger than the continental U.S.?
5. Who was the top-selling album artist of the 1970s, according to Billboard?
6. What color are a zebra's black stripes during the first six months of life?
7. What mineral accounts for 35 percent of the Earth's composition?
8. What four-word TV slogan did Sting add to the Dire Straits hit Money for Nothing?
9. What computer was introduced in 1984 Super Bowl ads?
10. What planet is the brightest object in the sky, after the sun and moon?
Enjoy...
1. What bird was first domesticated by man?
2. The average hen lays how many eggs a year?
3. A pig orgasm last for how long?
4. What desert has an area larger than the continental U.S.?
5. Who was the top-selling album artist of the 1970s, according to Billboard?
6. What color are a zebra's black stripes during the first six months of life?
7. What mineral accounts for 35 percent of the Earth's composition?
8. What four-word TV slogan did Sting add to the Dire Straits hit Money for Nothing?
9. What computer was introduced in 1984 Super Bowl ads?
10. What planet is the brightest object in the sky, after the sun and moon?
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Top Five Tuesday #17
I haven't done a Top 5 Tuesday since September! Jess and I are sitting here watching Enemy of the State since we hadn't seen it in a while and it made me think of other Will Smith movies I like. It's pretty timely too as "I am Legend" comes out next week. I am excited about it since I LOVE the story it is based on. I know they are going to change some parts, and I even see some parts that are different in the trailer, but I will enjoy it for what it is - a movie loosely based on a story I love.
With that being said, here are my favorite Will Smith films...
#5 - Enemy of the State - A fun film that deals with the government watching over our lives and the issues with privacy. Well, that is the undertone of the film, but it is really just another kickass action film by Tony Scott, who has made other great films like Top Gun, Deja Vu, Man on Fire, and one of my personal favorites, The Last Boyscout. This movie pretty much never stops from the first scene.
#4 - Men in Black - The first time I saw this, it was really one of the funniest movies I had ever seen. The banter between Smith and Jones is priceless and the humor is just hysterical. It is just too bad that the legacy of this film had to be ruined by a subpar sequel.
#3 - Bad Boys - This was the first movie I saw Will Smith in post Fresh Prince of Bel Air days. I had a hard time thinking he could be an action star, but this movie convinced me otherwise. The way that Smith and Lawrence interact is amazing and they really play off each other well. To top it off, it is an awesome action film, but what else do you expect from Michael Bay?
#2 - Bad Boys II - I was hesitant about this movie because I liked the first so much, and when I saw this sequel for the first time, I wasn't quite sure what to think. I mean, I liked it, but was it better? After repeated viewings of both, I actually like the sequel better simply because the action is that much better. Sure, it is a little over the top, but I think that is what makes it so enjoyable. The scene where dead bodies are falling out of a van during a chase scene - priceless!
#1 - Independence Day - Summer blockbuster film at its finest. The acting isn't very good, the storyline is cheesy and silly, but damnit, it keeps me hooked for 2 and a half hours of mindless entertainment. Even sitting here thinking about it, I am amazed at just how silly some scenes are, but it does what it is supposed to do - amaze me with special effects, big explosions, and wow moments!
So what is your favorite Will Smith Film?
With that being said, here are my favorite Will Smith films...
#5 - Enemy of the State - A fun film that deals with the government watching over our lives and the issues with privacy. Well, that is the undertone of the film, but it is really just another kickass action film by Tony Scott, who has made other great films like Top Gun, Deja Vu, Man on Fire, and one of my personal favorites, The Last Boyscout. This movie pretty much never stops from the first scene.
#4 - Men in Black - The first time I saw this, it was really one of the funniest movies I had ever seen. The banter between Smith and Jones is priceless and the humor is just hysterical. It is just too bad that the legacy of this film had to be ruined by a subpar sequel.
#3 - Bad Boys - This was the first movie I saw Will Smith in post Fresh Prince of Bel Air days. I had a hard time thinking he could be an action star, but this movie convinced me otherwise. The way that Smith and Lawrence interact is amazing and they really play off each other well. To top it off, it is an awesome action film, but what else do you expect from Michael Bay?
#2 - Bad Boys II - I was hesitant about this movie because I liked the first so much, and when I saw this sequel for the first time, I wasn't quite sure what to think. I mean, I liked it, but was it better? After repeated viewings of both, I actually like the sequel better simply because the action is that much better. Sure, it is a little over the top, but I think that is what makes it so enjoyable. The scene where dead bodies are falling out of a van during a chase scene - priceless!
#1 - Independence Day - Summer blockbuster film at its finest. The acting isn't very good, the storyline is cheesy and silly, but damnit, it keeps me hooked for 2 and a half hours of mindless entertainment. Even sitting here thinking about it, I am amazed at just how silly some scenes are, but it does what it is supposed to do - amaze me with special effects, big explosions, and wow moments!
So what is your favorite Will Smith Film?
Sunday, December 02, 2007
Evil E's Saturday Scavenger Hunt #8
This week's word comes courtesy of Dmarks. He chose the very timely word, "cold." Pretty convenient as this was a fairly cold week here in town. I think we even had some overnight lows under 32 degrees. Yeah, I am sure for some of you, that is your high for the day, but it is cold for us. Here is what I came up with...
After one of our nights with cold overnight temperatures, I wanted to get a picture of the frost on the grass. I was pretty disappointed. This picture was taken at 7am and already, there was barely any frost left. You can see it, but not nearly as much as I thought or hoped....
Here is Jess. Unfortunately, she has had a cold all week. It is going on a week now that she has been sick. My poor baby...
One of my favorite things in life - an ice cold glass of milk. Really, what else needs to be said?
Not sure what the word is this week, but I look forward to finding out. I always love the challenge. Oh yeah, the answers for the trivia are in the comments from the last post...
After one of our nights with cold overnight temperatures, I wanted to get a picture of the frost on the grass. I was pretty disappointed. This picture was taken at 7am and already, there was barely any frost left. You can see it, but not nearly as much as I thought or hoped....
Here is Jess. Unfortunately, she has had a cold all week. It is going on a week now that she has been sick. My poor baby...
One of my favorite things in life - an ice cold glass of milk. Really, what else needs to be said?
Not sure what the word is this week, but I look forward to finding out. I always love the challenge. Oh yeah, the answers for the trivia are in the comments from the last post...
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Thursday Trivia #??
What is this? The truimphant return of the Thursday Trivia game? It has been a while, I know. I even need to go back later and find out what number this is for the title above. I odn't know if I have done some of these questions as it has been a while so if these are repeats, you should know the answers....right? Remember, thee are just for fun and there are no prizes or looking dumb. I like when people make silly, funny guesses because they don't know the answer...
1. What's the most frequently diagnosed cancer in men?
2. What country sends the highest percentage of 15- and 16-year-olds to the altar?
3. What U.S. state had the first 7-Eleven stores?
4. What country supplies three-quarters of the world's maple syrup?
5. What tropical disease were mental patients intentionally infected with in the early 1900s as a treatment for insanity?
6. What direction did cartographers usually place at the top of maps when they believed the Earth was flat?
7. What car model was developed in 1938 by Dr. Ferdinand Porsche?
8. How many of every 1,000 species that have ever lived on Earth are still alive?
9. What insect depends the most upon sight, rather than sound, to locate mates?
10. What taste are cats unable to detect?
Have fun, and if you haven't read Rich's story down below, read the whole thing, it is really good....
1. What's the most frequently diagnosed cancer in men?
2. What country sends the highest percentage of 15- and 16-year-olds to the altar?
3. What U.S. state had the first 7-Eleven stores?
4. What country supplies three-quarters of the world's maple syrup?
5. What tropical disease were mental patients intentionally infected with in the early 1900s as a treatment for insanity?
6. What direction did cartographers usually place at the top of maps when they believed the Earth was flat?
7. What car model was developed in 1938 by Dr. Ferdinand Porsche?
8. How many of every 1,000 species that have ever lived on Earth are still alive?
9. What insect depends the most upon sight, rather than sound, to locate mates?
10. What taste are cats unable to detect?
Have fun, and if you haven't read Rich's story down below, read the whole thing, it is really good....
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
THE WAFFLE BARN
I reached down to open the menu, but stopped myself from taking a peek. I had memorized the menu years ago and knew it was only logical to get some waffles from a restaurant called The Waffle Barn. My father and I had become well known amongst the wait staff due to our weekly visits. It also didn’t hurt that we managed to leave tips above the normal recommended percentile. These trips had turned more into an excuse to be alone with my dad, which was more difficult nowadays. I always insisted on picking up the check and after an hour or so I would leave with a filled stomach and another story to tell. My father could spin a yarn and today was no exception.
"Let me tell you something Charlie. I am not too enamored with where this country is headed. Thanks to this idiot in the White House my boys in the military are out they’re killing themselves for a cause that only fools believe in. If I was running this country I would. . ."
"Let me guess, Dad. You would let the military do their jobs and you would tell all the bleeding heart liberals and right-wing conservatives to stick it," I said sarcastically.
My father had a way of looking at a person to communicate his displeasure. It was his way of saying are you an idiot without actually saying the words. I was on the receiving end of this look on more than one occasion in my life and today was no exception. Not that I went out of my way to provoke him, but it also was fairly amusing to get a rise out of the old man. After two heart attacks he rarely got the opportunity to show much passion for anything and who could blame him. I would not be in a hurry to raise my own heart rate after going through what he had gone through.
"What can I bring you today?" asked Sarah, one of our regular waitresses.
"Two orders of Belgium waffles, one with strawberry topping and the other with some maple syrup. Add two cups of coffee and we will be all set," I responded.
"You do realize we serve more than waffles at this place don’t ya?" quipped Sarah.
"Not to be too cliched, but if it ain’t broke why fix it?" I stated.
Sarah walked away smiling and shaking her head.
I couldn’t help but feel a sense of pride as I sat with my father in recent trips to The Waffle Barn. I had many conversations with him in the past few years of my life that were filled with depression and self-doubt. I can’t say that I had managed to pull myself together through these breakfast therapy sessions, but it certainly didn’t hurt either.
"What’s wrong with you Charlie?" barked my father.
"I was just daydreaming is all. You know how I get when I am fresh out of bed and starving," I proclaimed.
"That’s not what I mean and you know it Charlie."
I sensed anger in my father’s voice as I listened to him berate me with a speech that I could only guess he had been practicing for quite some time.
"You are 29 years old. You have been telling me the same sad tales for 3 years now. Ever since you moved into that place with those two roommates you have regressed. What happened to you? Life is not about watching all the latest TV shows. Your best friend is your dog for God’s sake. I have to believe that no one has ever done spoken to you in this manner. I have share in the blame on that one cause I guess I assumed you were not in need of this kind of treatment. You use to be so poised and mature. I thought that if I laid back and let you figure it out then it would all work out. Any man who makes something of themselves in life has to stand on there own two feet and be accounted for as a contributing member of society. You have sat around acting like the world is going to hand you the blueprint."
In the midst of my father’s rant I found myself just nodding my head as I blankly stared through his eyes.
"Your mother and I just wanted to give you guidance and show you the many options you had in life. Instead of taking a chance and going down one of the roads we presented you we had to sit by and watch you sit in the stands and watch the parade pass your lazy-ass by. Doesn’t all of this bother you? And by this I mean the constant aid you have to get in order to attain any kind of semblance of a normal life. Granted, you are not hurting any one. You also are not helping. It is as if you enjoy just existing. Witness the world and write an anonymous Internet diary about the life you are not living. Do you strive for mediocrity?
Sarah, our waitress, inadvertently cut off my father to present our meals. I politely thanked her and watched my father dig right in to his plate of waffles. I had to say something and forgo my sweet tooth for the moment.
"Do you have any idea how long I have waited for you to give me a talking to like that Dad?
I looked up from my plate at my father. I could see the confusion on his face. My statement had my father waiting with baited breath.
"I guess I got your full attention seeing as how you left those waffles alone so I will try to answer some of those questions you just posed. I have never been a situation where I just had to get my work done or else. Never! All I can do is thank all the people around me in my life that have given me a safety net throughout my life. That said, I know that I have no real motivation, self or otherwise, to get ahead in anything I do. I can see the good in doing work and getting out of life what you put into it. It just doesn’t stir me into action. It just doesn’t matter to me either way. All my decisions in life or all the things that have and do occur don’t effect me in extreme ways. The highest highs and the lowest lows produce the same reaction. I just shrug my shoulders. In my little world it doesn’t matter much to me and I tend to believe it doesn’t matter much to any of those people around me. I jump to that conclusion cause this is the first time in my life anyone cared enough to take a stand and put a mirror to my face to show me what I have become. I am a living, breathing memory. I am the guy people know through association with another person. I am Terry’s brother or Peter’s friend. Half the time people can’t even remember my name. It is as if I am just a ghost and I accepted this role many years ago."
My long-winded response had managed to capture my one-man audience. The waffles had cooled off and the coffee cups remained filled. Even our waitress had managed to sense the emotion at the diner table cause she avoided us for an extended period as I continued to express my frustrations to my father.
"I realize the exaggeration that is coming out of my mouth, but it feels very real to me on a daily basis. It is as if I appear for temporary moments in the day and have an interaction with someone and then just like that. Poof! Back to day dreaming my life away. I am always attaining goals years after they would have had any significance to my growth as a human being. All because I didn’t know what it really meant to do work. To really have to put forth an effort and sacrifice a part of my slacker lifestyle to find something of substance, so I can be more than just a worker ant. I can not tell how many times I have sat in my bedroom wondering if my parents know what a disappointment I think I am to them. Eternally waiting should be a motto I tattoo on my body to signify my self-awareness of what I truly am. Only now in this very moment with you Dad do I accept truths that have always been evident to me. It was just easy to deny the reality of how I live my life in fear of everything."
I turned my attention to Sarah as she tapped my shoulder and handed me the bill for the breakfast that managed to go unfinished. I could feel the pity she had for me as she walked away. I had become an excellent observer of body language and she exhibited many of the symptoms of a person who wants to help, but has no idea what to say to open that door. A lack of eye contact is a major giveaway. Sarah also brought her hand to her mouth as she handed me the check. Nervous habits or ticks rear their ugly head come times like this. It is difficult to act normal or relaxed when you just are a tense ball of misguided sympathy. The phrase most commonly uttered about me by first-time encounters with people is "poor guy." Unfortunately, I had managed to make long-time acquaintances have the same exact reaction more and more nowadays.
"Charlie. I have no cliched quote to guide you on the path in your life. Honestly, there is no right and wrong path. The only path that exists is the one you make for yourself. Apparently, you have been following the path left by others. A life worth living is one that hasn’t been lived before and won’t be lived afterwards. I know that is a load of crap, but it is also a lot more truth than fiction. You have to believe in something. Otherwise, you just go around playing a role. A never ending journey filed with loneliness and depression."
My father had made some valid points. I had always considered him a smart man, but even though he was saying the same things I had told myself many times in the past it just made more of an impact on me this day.
"What if I am too late? What if I can’t break the cycle? What if I am just a whole lot of lip service right now and back to my old ways come tomorrow? What do I do Dad?
I was anticipating a delayed, well-thought out response from my father. Instead I got a sudden impact.
"I can not tell you what to do. If I did then you would just be following the path I took. Or the path of someone I knew back in the day when I was a young man trying to figure it all out just like you are doing right now. My only advice to you right now is that you should never reach a point in life that makes you stop. Don’t ever stop and admire your work. That is the sin of the procrastinator."
"That is exactly what I do. I work hard to get 75 percent of the way and then I shut it all down to admire how far I have come in my journey to almost getting to the end of my temporary goal. I know I am always suppose to be growing and learning but become so enamored with myself that it sidetracks everything. A cycle of vanity that gets me running the same steps over and over again. I just have to become something. Being nothing is just an empty, meaningless life. At least if I try to be something I can say I was more than just a title someone else gave me."
I looked across the breakfast table at my father. He smiled and rose from his chair and stood next to me. I looked up at him as he placed his hand on my head. I felt like I was 4-years old again as he attempted to tussle my hairless head. I followed close behind and headed for the front counter to handle my bill. My waitress Sarah had her back to me as she spoke with one of her co-workers. I could not help but eavesdrop as I approached her. I heard her tell her co-worker that it broke her heart every time I came in to get breakfast. I heard Sarah wonder aloud if I was all alone since my father had died two years ago, yet I still managed to make weekly visits to The Waffle Barn without my father. As I turned to face Sarah I heard the co-worker ask rhetorically, "So that’s whom Charlie is talking to across his table?"
"Thanks again Sarah. Guess my eyes were more ambitious than my stomach. See you next week."
Sarah politely wished me farewell and I left without addressing the conversation I just heard her have supposedly behind my back. I prefer it this way cause I can still see my father every week at the same time. Guess I am still just waiting.
"Let me tell you something Charlie. I am not too enamored with where this country is headed. Thanks to this idiot in the White House my boys in the military are out they’re killing themselves for a cause that only fools believe in. If I was running this country I would. . ."
"Let me guess, Dad. You would let the military do their jobs and you would tell all the bleeding heart liberals and right-wing conservatives to stick it," I said sarcastically.
My father had a way of looking at a person to communicate his displeasure. It was his way of saying are you an idiot without actually saying the words. I was on the receiving end of this look on more than one occasion in my life and today was no exception. Not that I went out of my way to provoke him, but it also was fairly amusing to get a rise out of the old man. After two heart attacks he rarely got the opportunity to show much passion for anything and who could blame him. I would not be in a hurry to raise my own heart rate after going through what he had gone through.
"What can I bring you today?" asked Sarah, one of our regular waitresses.
"Two orders of Belgium waffles, one with strawberry topping and the other with some maple syrup. Add two cups of coffee and we will be all set," I responded.
"You do realize we serve more than waffles at this place don’t ya?" quipped Sarah.
"Not to be too cliched, but if it ain’t broke why fix it?" I stated.
Sarah walked away smiling and shaking her head.
I couldn’t help but feel a sense of pride as I sat with my father in recent trips to The Waffle Barn. I had many conversations with him in the past few years of my life that were filled with depression and self-doubt. I can’t say that I had managed to pull myself together through these breakfast therapy sessions, but it certainly didn’t hurt either.
"What’s wrong with you Charlie?" barked my father.
"I was just daydreaming is all. You know how I get when I am fresh out of bed and starving," I proclaimed.
"That’s not what I mean and you know it Charlie."
I sensed anger in my father’s voice as I listened to him berate me with a speech that I could only guess he had been practicing for quite some time.
"You are 29 years old. You have been telling me the same sad tales for 3 years now. Ever since you moved into that place with those two roommates you have regressed. What happened to you? Life is not about watching all the latest TV shows. Your best friend is your dog for God’s sake. I have to believe that no one has ever done spoken to you in this manner. I have share in the blame on that one cause I guess I assumed you were not in need of this kind of treatment. You use to be so poised and mature. I thought that if I laid back and let you figure it out then it would all work out. Any man who makes something of themselves in life has to stand on there own two feet and be accounted for as a contributing member of society. You have sat around acting like the world is going to hand you the blueprint."
In the midst of my father’s rant I found myself just nodding my head as I blankly stared through his eyes.
"Your mother and I just wanted to give you guidance and show you the many options you had in life. Instead of taking a chance and going down one of the roads we presented you we had to sit by and watch you sit in the stands and watch the parade pass your lazy-ass by. Doesn’t all of this bother you? And by this I mean the constant aid you have to get in order to attain any kind of semblance of a normal life. Granted, you are not hurting any one. You also are not helping. It is as if you enjoy just existing. Witness the world and write an anonymous Internet diary about the life you are not living. Do you strive for mediocrity?
Sarah, our waitress, inadvertently cut off my father to present our meals. I politely thanked her and watched my father dig right in to his plate of waffles. I had to say something and forgo my sweet tooth for the moment.
"Do you have any idea how long I have waited for you to give me a talking to like that Dad?
I looked up from my plate at my father. I could see the confusion on his face. My statement had my father waiting with baited breath.
"I guess I got your full attention seeing as how you left those waffles alone so I will try to answer some of those questions you just posed. I have never been a situation where I just had to get my work done or else. Never! All I can do is thank all the people around me in my life that have given me a safety net throughout my life. That said, I know that I have no real motivation, self or otherwise, to get ahead in anything I do. I can see the good in doing work and getting out of life what you put into it. It just doesn’t stir me into action. It just doesn’t matter to me either way. All my decisions in life or all the things that have and do occur don’t effect me in extreme ways. The highest highs and the lowest lows produce the same reaction. I just shrug my shoulders. In my little world it doesn’t matter much to me and I tend to believe it doesn’t matter much to any of those people around me. I jump to that conclusion cause this is the first time in my life anyone cared enough to take a stand and put a mirror to my face to show me what I have become. I am a living, breathing memory. I am the guy people know through association with another person. I am Terry’s brother or Peter’s friend. Half the time people can’t even remember my name. It is as if I am just a ghost and I accepted this role many years ago."
My long-winded response had managed to capture my one-man audience. The waffles had cooled off and the coffee cups remained filled. Even our waitress had managed to sense the emotion at the diner table cause she avoided us for an extended period as I continued to express my frustrations to my father.
"I realize the exaggeration that is coming out of my mouth, but it feels very real to me on a daily basis. It is as if I appear for temporary moments in the day and have an interaction with someone and then just like that. Poof! Back to day dreaming my life away. I am always attaining goals years after they would have had any significance to my growth as a human being. All because I didn’t know what it really meant to do work. To really have to put forth an effort and sacrifice a part of my slacker lifestyle to find something of substance, so I can be more than just a worker ant. I can not tell how many times I have sat in my bedroom wondering if my parents know what a disappointment I think I am to them. Eternally waiting should be a motto I tattoo on my body to signify my self-awareness of what I truly am. Only now in this very moment with you Dad do I accept truths that have always been evident to me. It was just easy to deny the reality of how I live my life in fear of everything."
I turned my attention to Sarah as she tapped my shoulder and handed me the bill for the breakfast that managed to go unfinished. I could feel the pity she had for me as she walked away. I had become an excellent observer of body language and she exhibited many of the symptoms of a person who wants to help, but has no idea what to say to open that door. A lack of eye contact is a major giveaway. Sarah also brought her hand to her mouth as she handed me the check. Nervous habits or ticks rear their ugly head come times like this. It is difficult to act normal or relaxed when you just are a tense ball of misguided sympathy. The phrase most commonly uttered about me by first-time encounters with people is "poor guy." Unfortunately, I had managed to make long-time acquaintances have the same exact reaction more and more nowadays.
"Charlie. I have no cliched quote to guide you on the path in your life. Honestly, there is no right and wrong path. The only path that exists is the one you make for yourself. Apparently, you have been following the path left by others. A life worth living is one that hasn’t been lived before and won’t be lived afterwards. I know that is a load of crap, but it is also a lot more truth than fiction. You have to believe in something. Otherwise, you just go around playing a role. A never ending journey filed with loneliness and depression."
My father had made some valid points. I had always considered him a smart man, but even though he was saying the same things I had told myself many times in the past it just made more of an impact on me this day.
"What if I am too late? What if I can’t break the cycle? What if I am just a whole lot of lip service right now and back to my old ways come tomorrow? What do I do Dad?
I was anticipating a delayed, well-thought out response from my father. Instead I got a sudden impact.
"I can not tell you what to do. If I did then you would just be following the path I took. Or the path of someone I knew back in the day when I was a young man trying to figure it all out just like you are doing right now. My only advice to you right now is that you should never reach a point in life that makes you stop. Don’t ever stop and admire your work. That is the sin of the procrastinator."
"That is exactly what I do. I work hard to get 75 percent of the way and then I shut it all down to admire how far I have come in my journey to almost getting to the end of my temporary goal. I know I am always suppose to be growing and learning but become so enamored with myself that it sidetracks everything. A cycle of vanity that gets me running the same steps over and over again. I just have to become something. Being nothing is just an empty, meaningless life. At least if I try to be something I can say I was more than just a title someone else gave me."
I looked across the breakfast table at my father. He smiled and rose from his chair and stood next to me. I looked up at him as he placed his hand on my head. I felt like I was 4-years old again as he attempted to tussle my hairless head. I followed close behind and headed for the front counter to handle my bill. My waitress Sarah had her back to me as she spoke with one of her co-workers. I could not help but eavesdrop as I approached her. I heard her tell her co-worker that it broke her heart every time I came in to get breakfast. I heard Sarah wonder aloud if I was all alone since my father had died two years ago, yet I still managed to make weekly visits to The Waffle Barn without my father. As I turned to face Sarah I heard the co-worker ask rhetorically, "So that’s whom Charlie is talking to across his table?"
"Thanks again Sarah. Guess my eyes were more ambitious than my stomach. See you next week."
Sarah politely wished me farewell and I left without addressing the conversation I just heard her have supposedly behind my back. I prefer it this way cause I can still see my father every week at the same time. Guess I am still just waiting.
Monday, November 26, 2007
The season is upon us
We are officially on a countdown to Christmas! Not only is that exciting for the obvious reasons, but I am also going to Disneyland for a few days the day after Christmas! Quite a lot to look forward to. So what have I been up to the last few days? I generally hate the whole "what I did" recap, but I had a lot going on...
Thursday - Had Thanksgiving at my folks' house. I didn't eat too much as I really don't care for Thanksgiving food too much. I usually just put some turkey on bread with mayo and cranberry sauce and make a sandwich, throw some mashed potatoes on the side and that pretty much covers what I like. I guess it is good because it keeps me from stuffing my face on at least one day of the year. Some more family members came over after dinner and we watched a movie. We didn't stay too late into the night as we knew the next day would be quite busy!
Friday - At 5:00 am, the alarm went off to get out of bed and get those Black Friday deals. I guess it isn't too bad considering that when the alarm when off at 5:00 am, my parents and sister had already been at Best Buy for 20 minutes! Crazy! They wanted to get there early because my sister wanted to get a new camera - the one I just got a few months back. Copycat - always trying to be like me! We got some good shopping in at a few stores and we were able to cross a handful of things off our Christmas shopping list!
We were home by noon or so, but spent the next few hours on the phone with my dad because he decided to buy a new tv and needed advice. He ended up with a tv and I went over to my parent's house to answer a few more questions for him before he opened it. He ended up deciding to get a different one! In the end, he got a kickass tv that I am really jealous of!
Friday night was a night I had really been looking forward to for a long time - my high school soccer alumni game. I haven't played in a while, but couldn't do any training for it because of my torn calf muscle. The orthopedist even advised me not to play, but when soccer is your life and you haven't played in a while, I knew I would be playing. It was us old guys against the current varsity team for the high school. I hobbled around a bunch and the skin tight jersey didn't fit me at all, but I had a good time. I even saved a goal from going in! We lost 4-3 in the last minute, but all in all, it was an awesome time and I look forward to next year. Jess took some pics so I will post those later on. And in true soccer spirit, we went all went to pizza after!
Saturday - We started by going to IKEA with my aunt who was visiting from out of town. She had never been there so it is always fun to take a new person to that store. We picked up a few small things, but were mostly there for the ride. After, I helped my dad set up his tv and BluRay player. Man it looks good. His 1080p puts my 720p to shame. So jealous....
Saturday night was poker and it was another night of not winning any money. It has been almost five months now since I have won at poker. July 3rd to be exact. Just depressing. Luckily, that did not put a damper on my night as a few of my friends played Rock Band with me. If you don't know, Rock Band is like Guitar Hero, but with a drum set and microphone included - think Guitar Hero, Drum Hero, and Karaoke Hero all combined. It is an awesome game and Jess and I have been playing nonstop since we got it last Tuesday. My friend Gary did a lot of singing and almost had me pissing my pants with his interpretations of some songs. It helped that he was drunk off his ass! Good times! Where is a video camera when you need one?!?!
Sunday - We set up the house for Christmas. Despite me loving the holiday, I despise the whole setting up Christmas around the house thing. Only thing worse is taking it down. Besides that, it was a nice relaxing day. Too bad work had to return today. But, I guess the faster Monday came, the faster it is until Christmas and Disneyland!
Thursday - Had Thanksgiving at my folks' house. I didn't eat too much as I really don't care for Thanksgiving food too much. I usually just put some turkey on bread with mayo and cranberry sauce and make a sandwich, throw some mashed potatoes on the side and that pretty much covers what I like. I guess it is good because it keeps me from stuffing my face on at least one day of the year. Some more family members came over after dinner and we watched a movie. We didn't stay too late into the night as we knew the next day would be quite busy!
Friday - At 5:00 am, the alarm went off to get out of bed and get those Black Friday deals. I guess it isn't too bad considering that when the alarm when off at 5:00 am, my parents and sister had already been at Best Buy for 20 minutes! Crazy! They wanted to get there early because my sister wanted to get a new camera - the one I just got a few months back. Copycat - always trying to be like me! We got some good shopping in at a few stores and we were able to cross a handful of things off our Christmas shopping list!
We were home by noon or so, but spent the next few hours on the phone with my dad because he decided to buy a new tv and needed advice. He ended up with a tv and I went over to my parent's house to answer a few more questions for him before he opened it. He ended up deciding to get a different one! In the end, he got a kickass tv that I am really jealous of!
Friday night was a night I had really been looking forward to for a long time - my high school soccer alumni game. I haven't played in a while, but couldn't do any training for it because of my torn calf muscle. The orthopedist even advised me not to play, but when soccer is your life and you haven't played in a while, I knew I would be playing. It was us old guys against the current varsity team for the high school. I hobbled around a bunch and the skin tight jersey didn't fit me at all, but I had a good time. I even saved a goal from going in! We lost 4-3 in the last minute, but all in all, it was an awesome time and I look forward to next year. Jess took some pics so I will post those later on. And in true soccer spirit, we went all went to pizza after!
Saturday - We started by going to IKEA with my aunt who was visiting from out of town. She had never been there so it is always fun to take a new person to that store. We picked up a few small things, but were mostly there for the ride. After, I helped my dad set up his tv and BluRay player. Man it looks good. His 1080p puts my 720p to shame. So jealous....
Saturday night was poker and it was another night of not winning any money. It has been almost five months now since I have won at poker. July 3rd to be exact. Just depressing. Luckily, that did not put a damper on my night as a few of my friends played Rock Band with me. If you don't know, Rock Band is like Guitar Hero, but with a drum set and microphone included - think Guitar Hero, Drum Hero, and Karaoke Hero all combined. It is an awesome game and Jess and I have been playing nonstop since we got it last Tuesday. My friend Gary did a lot of singing and almost had me pissing my pants with his interpretations of some songs. It helped that he was drunk off his ass! Good times! Where is a video camera when you need one?!?!
Sunday - We set up the house for Christmas. Despite me loving the holiday, I despise the whole setting up Christmas around the house thing. Only thing worse is taking it down. Besides that, it was a nice relaxing day. Too bad work had to return today. But, I guess the faster Monday came, the faster it is until Christmas and Disneyland!
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
My new car!!
I had ever intention of blogging yesterday like I said I would on Monday. However, as you all know, life catches up with you. Monday night, Jessica and I were in a car accident in our not even 4 month old car. We're fine, just a little sore. We were driving downtown when a car blindly came into the street we were driving in from a parking garage. We slammed on our brakes to avoid hitting them and thankfully, my reflexes were fast enough. However, the car behind me was not fast enough and they rammed into our car from behind. Our car is ok for the most part; just going to need a brand new bumper as it is jacked up. The car that hit is actually looked worse. All 3 cars pulled over for the whole insurance exchange, etc, but yesterday we had to do doctor's appointments and make police reports. So, I did have the intention to blog, but it happens. Tomorrow, come back for my review of our great new PS3 game - Rock Band!!!
Monday, November 19, 2007
Evil E's Saturday Scavenger Hunt #7
Damn, I am getting lazy. It is not just with posting pics, but with all blogging lately. Funny thing is, I am not bored with blogging. It is just pure laziness. Too lazy to post anything. Too lazy to go to everyone's blogs and read. Just laziness in general. I feel I am getting out of this funk though as I have posts planned all week and I plan to visit all your blogs Tuesday, the first time I have visited a blog in a week. Sorry about being a bad blogger buddy. I've got my blogging mojo back though. Prepare....
Evil E picked the word for last week and chose "paper". I have a few to show you...
Here are some cool paper products! My comics! Oh how these pieces of paper bring me such joy!!!
Here is a very important piece of paper - our marriage license.
Here is the word of the week with a former word of the week - paper & rock. Remember, paper always beats rock!
When I bought my business from the former owner in May, files were in disaray. Lately, I have been going through patient folders paper by paper and throwing out things that were not necessary and taking up space. Unfortunately, I just can't throw them away as they have personal info on them. Lot of shredding to do. Here is what I have to shred and am still only about 1/3 of the way through all the files....
The word of the week this week - food! YES!!!
Evil E picked the word for last week and chose "paper". I have a few to show you...
Here are some cool paper products! My comics! Oh how these pieces of paper bring me such joy!!!
Here is a very important piece of paper - our marriage license.
Here is the word of the week with a former word of the week - paper & rock. Remember, paper always beats rock!
When I bought my business from the former owner in May, files were in disaray. Lately, I have been going through patient folders paper by paper and throwing out things that were not necessary and taking up space. Unfortunately, I just can't throw them away as they have personal info on them. Lot of shredding to do. Here is what I have to shred and am still only about 1/3 of the way through all the files....
The word of the week this week - food! YES!!!
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Evil E's Saturday Scavenger Hunt #6
I am finally getting around to doing the word from Saturday which was "work." I pick the word and it takes me half a week to post it. Go figure....
Here is a "work" of art in our house. This is many of the Disney villains from a unique perpective. LOVE this!
Here is my office at home where I do my "work."
The following are pictures of my poker room where I "work" hard to earn money. That hasn't gone too well lately...
Here are some of the weeds I still need to pull in my backyard. Yardwork sucks!
Here is a "work" of art in our house. This is many of the Disney villains from a unique perpective. LOVE this!
Here is my office at home where I do my "work."
The following are pictures of my poker room where I "work" hard to earn money. That hasn't gone too well lately...
Here are some of the weeds I still need to pull in my backyard. Yardwork sucks!
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