Day 41

I am always curious to see what happenes during my birthday. Not that I am expecting anything. I rarely do nowadays. I am just curious this year more than others. I have lately been getting a lot out of people. Not through manipulation or anything like that, but a sorta karma return policy that has been kicking in over the past few weeks. As if everyone knew I had my nuts cut off last month and handed to me. Sorry if that was slightly off color folks, but it makes the point clear. I suppose nowadays I want to look into people's eyes and see what they are about. I want to know why they are around. I think I have trust issues. I think people are capable of anything. I am the one behind in our groups kinda big blow out things for turning 30 thang we started in '06. I still got a year to go. One is coming up in the group. Wonder how that will go? Guess I will have to be around just to witness it. Something always told me that at some point there would have to be a before/after moment in the group. Ya ask me it may have already happened, but I'm a more biased person in those dealings, so it's not as widespread amongst all. Ya know what will be different this year. First time since 2002 that I haven't had the same birthday wish. It never came true and this year I just really don't want it to. What a difference a day makes.

Playoff time tomorrow. Something tells me it's going to be a different kind of postseason run this year. The measure of a man can only be truly tested when they are confronted with that which is not familiar. Get home safe from camping boys. Time to make money.

Rabble Rock!