Kinda what I figured.

Less than a year into being moved out of my parent's house and I come to the conclusion I always kinda knew. I'd rather live alone. This is not a shot at my two roommates. I got no problem with them at all. In fact, it is nice to have someone around at times to do whatever with like go to a movie or head out to lunch. That said, I know my own quirk very well and here it is. I get so much more done alone with absolutely no one watching or helping. There is just something about having everything a certain way and coming back to it just as you left it. If I leave the dishes in the sink, I know I gotta come back to em later and wash those suckers. Similarly, If I leave my house and the kitchen counter is spotless then the only thing that might make it's way to that counter is dust. Nothing else. I really like that comforting feeling. My own lil corner of the world that I have complete control over. Having my own room is not the same. It has restrictions. I gotta close my door and try and find freedom in a compact area. That is not for me.

Something about this also makes me work harder or more efficiently. I could probably write two posts a day on this blog if I lived alone. Why? I'd have complete access to this computer at any time. I'd come up with an idea and just do it right then. I no longer want to wait my turn or share certain things in my life. I like having only myself to blame. I have no other scapegoats. This may have a sense of me making excuses for my laziness or procrastinatory (think I made up a new word again) tendencies, but it's just about not really breaking away even now. I am convinced this all goes back to not going away to college back in the day. I have just always been surrounded by people. I have never had a chance to miss anyone or truly step out and say to myself, "Well Rich it's all on you now kid." Perhaps I am still finding a way to blame others for my faults. If so, I guess I have some growing to do still. Till then, guess my real mission in life should be moving out on my own.

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